I kinda hate writing again. I liked blogging for my previous job, but it just never felt like my voice. So, I have to ask, is MY blogger broken?
Perhaps with Google trying to kill RSS–they are in fact sabotaging the little people on the Internets. The geeks, present company included, that setup their bedroom as a radio/tv station 8 yrs ago–a station/podcast that they could only dream of having in 6th grade, will be crushed by the lack of readership that comes from RSS publishing. But I’m not one to get my panties in a bunch over the latest internet sensations. I know that those of us with real stories & real skills will always have a place at the table.
In related news, scriptwriting is brutal. We’re hard at work to finish our pilot script for a web series. However, our planned web series is about lesbians–but it’s not a lesbian web series, per say. Yet some of the scenes absolutely must be graphic! Ha–it’s hard to pitch the pilot without including the graphic parts in the first episode, yet it doesn’t quite fit. Eh, if we have to produce it ourselves, we’ll do what we want (animation if need be–and you’ll all be glad for the graphic parts). It’s the age old dilemma. If you let others in…they will likely take it OVER. But with the help of others, our stories can finally be shared.
Lastly, my iPhone is dead all the time now. If you know me, in real life–please don’t hesitate to email me your phone/text messages. Yes, it’s true that you can also continue texting–but only if you have an iPhone–cuz I’m an Apple whore like that. (I can still gettem’ on my iPad.) And I’m no longer participating in the stalking pleasures of Facebook. People don’t really share. They come to gawk. I’m not tryin to hide–I’ve always been right here. But when ignorance starts filling my day (people posting racist images, tormentors of my past showing up in “likes,” then of course my judging of everyone else’s lack of judgement, and all the other dumb drama) I just have to walk away. Sometimes you just need a break–to really see what it was doing to you.
And then it reminds me why I liked blogging in the first place! I don’t give a shit if someone clicks a like button, most of the time without even reading what I’m saying. This is a place that I’m free to be me. I can post what I want. I don’t have ads for ridiculous crap in my face. And further, the content I share can actually be reviewed, saved for scripts, or produced in one of our videos. When I put stuff on Facebook…it might as well be added to a consumer database of what I like to do and then just immediately deleted. Ain’t nobody gonna go back and deal with FB’s weird, controlling ways of showing you even your own content!
So I’m back to the bloggin board…where it’s beautiful, ad-free, and just what I want it to be.
P.S. Happy Birthday M.C. I still think about you all the time. I read through some of our final stories together this weekend–you always knew how to laugh. And you always believed in me. I’ll never forget that.